Marry Me Billy Joel

kung hindi na lang ikaw, ayaw ko na. :P

Conquering some fears..

Bakit ganun, bakit, bakit, bakit? takot pa rin ako sa heights.. There's no such thing as conquering your fear.. I think the better advise is to steer clear, run away and pray that you wouldn't get into the situation you would have a face to face encounter.

Tingnan mo, I have tried "conquering" it.. But I am still afraid of heights! Bunjee in Sing, the tallest buildings in Taiwan, Thailand, HK and Macau, sky jumping, parasailing. Who would want to fall from an 80meter building, even if you have a daily dose of free skyjumping. Last week, I tried zip lining, and still, I am still afraid of heights.

I remember in macau, after the skyjump, I was at the observation deck and I couldn't even walk through the plexi-glassed floor. It was just a meter long and wide, I was crawling.

Like I am still afraid of public speaking.. This after theater and all the presentations I have done in my corporate life.

I am still claustrophic.. And I still am planning to go back to the viet nam cuchi tunnels since I failed myself last time I tried it (hyperventillated and went up after the 2nd exit.) Siguro, even if i manage to complete the whole tunnel even try the non-tourist real -deal vietnamese standard issue tunnel, I will still be claustrauphobic. I would still panic in the makati-buendia tunnel when stuck in traffic, will still have hard breathing after taking off a black shirt (that one moment when you gather the shirt at the neck and pull it off your head -- if i go an additional moment taking it out.. i drown.) i will still be praning in small elevators.

Bakit ganun, What to do?

Spring cleaning

Since its boxing time, and I have been bothered with a lot of excess stuff already I will be parting with items before I move out. For a single gal, why do I need 2 sets of dining china for 4? My personal supplies a bit superflous with 4 versions of punchers (in the strictest of definitions) not including the comb binder, lizard and snowflake shaped punchers that I have stacked in the office supplies area. OA na.

Another sample to illustrate the need to prune my trash, er stuff.. Me, solo person has a wifi network of 4 in my workgroup (desktop, laptop, pda ipaq and pda asus) at home. rrrrr.

I really have to fix this problem, pack ratting is a genetic problem.. Pathologic strength.

Johnny Mathis

There's this wonderful moment in my childhood :
It was 4ish or 5 pm. In our Manila Times (my uber favorite home) living room, we had heavy curtains where afternoons would be quite dark already. Johnny Mathis was playing, on a "quadrophonic turntable" (btw, we still have this "system" todate, ) Dad and mom dancing cheek to cheek. I just remember just staring at them dancing.

Until now, Johnny Mathis still gives me that calm. Chances are. :)

What's your "comfort song" ?

Shipping out version 4

My address doesn’t seem to agree with the dramas of my life.. So then I am doing something about this issue :) I will be moving to a new place this 2009!


Sikatuna, it sounds old QC, astig.. Now with solid years living in QC, am no longer the southener.

Like, who would believe I am having money issues and I am in dire need of a job if I live in eastwood.. Waaah, I should really fix my demographics to act and look dukha. Problem fixed. New place.. Yehey!

I still congratulate myself for not succumbing to the lure of going back to parents' place. I almost.

Side anecdote : last Christmas vacay while staying at home for a while, dinnertime was a feast compared to my usual fastfood, cook own food or eat out fare (portions at home are gynormous) like, I felt like the prodigal gal inggit mode. I almost.