cosme, dindo, enteng, frank, helen, igme, julian, karen, marce, nina, ophel, pablo

i was not a whole person to begin with
i said i will help
the least you could do is help me too.. ok i didn't ask for an SOS..
but a friend should have sensed the cry for help..
or seen how i was breaking/ falling apart

in melancholia terms i was living an alberta / janine
after the storm.. is still a storm
one doesn't deserve


since bawal ang drama, side trivia :
cosme and dindo - sagada shoot, melancholia
enteng
frank - eastwood winds pries open carhood (woaah!)
marikina riverbanks shoot, melancholia
helen, igme, julian, karen
marce - .MOV Night mag:net Katipunan
nina - hahahahaha
ophel - .MOV press conference
pablo - .MOV first day screening.. kaloka!!

ayan kasi u dared to blind storms.. hehehe right between the eyes.

wrap up notes

they say : there is a lack of venue, the businessmen just wouldn't allow their cinemas to screen these kinds of films

i saw : a cafe in katipunan with empty seats and tables everyday when it programmed films and presented it for free.. another example a "cinematheque," and another
a full scale cinema dedicated for digital/ indie running for 2 years, never complaining that it shows with full amenities (a/c, theater setup, 250++ seater) to (at its worst, one lady guard said while toilet chatting ) 1 soul. Some businessmen dare to cater to feed your art, most of the time there are no takers.

***

they say : no good content, either too experimental, too long, too short, no celebs, no art, not my art, too avantgarde, too (place your excuses here.)

i met : about 100 filmmakers offering films you can imagine, sometimes you can only imagine. presenting it for free, in pretty packages, in major blitz, in silent word of mouth, in guerilla tactics, but still they won't watch.

***

they say : lack of government support.

i see : there are other governments and supporters willing to help. one word : share. independent doesn't mean solo. share info, share experiences.. it'll be easier to break walls if you work together.. the world is big, one filmmaker's gain is not your loss.

***

but these films can't be silenced, these filmmakers can't be stopped.
i hope i wont stop finding solutions too..
even if its tiring..
even if it breaks.. (temporary i hope)

mabuhay!
it wasn't my dream to be a missionary
but i once joked about being a multimedia mogul.

:)

just like goldilocks

finally, a swabe ending.

first try, i pushed to convince somebody not to think about THAT, the attempt failed and broke me in a way

second, at the first sign of distress.. i bailed immediately.. no more ms. nice girl

yesterday was cool, a NO that ended great.

but yeah, i shouldn't be used to saying NO..
just because i don't like long distance
just because it was a last day
anyway, swabe :)

SAYONACHI

My dad has this term about running away from danger..

SAYONACHI

short for SA IYO NA CHINELAS KO!

malapit na ang ending.MOV

ayun..

randoms blahs

Haaayyy.. A day for myself

I wouldn't do it any other way, except for.. Missing cake!
I got new friends greeting on blogs
I got old friends texting.. And yah, getting to be called CARINA again made me remember who I was
Blast from the past.. Like if somebody shouts that name, di man lang ako lilingon.
I wasn’t into answering phone calls, but I did answer finally
And was a welcome surprise, he didn't know it was my biirthday, I had to remind him.
Siya naman yung into fate-fate things, he'll be back in november, and I just can't help it but we talked work for a short while.. after him I allowed myself to answer more calls and yeah, he started a trend -- overseas old friends.. I got three and it was cancer causing in length..sana tuloy pa rin ang promo ng smart miles for roaming ang overseas call points.. I need to take a break! Waaaaahhhh.

Somebody missed to call... and someone who usually calls a month before and after that I remembered to miss, ahaha just thinking that he just misplaced my number and we will just bump into each other in mega or shang.. Update phonebooks and ...But yah, reality faced, I know, he's no longer with us.
***
Vanity, Imortality, Sanity

You shouldn't have dared.
You know she doesn't say no.
You should take care of her.
You should have not been careless.
Sorry doesn't make the cut anymore.

I hope you enjoyed it.
It was amazing really.
But you can say NO.
Sometimes things are not worth your all.

***
Hurray for Hongkong Noodles

I like pancit without the garnishings
I uber like instant pancit canton and yakisoba
Now, I found my favorite hangout in eastwood (well second favorite because I still love my secret hiding nook somewhere.. Shhhh.. Secret nga e) and uber cheap mega eat while-you-walk (ahaha exag, I haven't tried but why not?) experience
Malapit na akong makilala ng lahat ng shifts ahaha
Plus the buko juice kiosk who always run out of buko juice .. Nyaaaahhhhhrrggg

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