Hypothetical questions

paano mo mababawi ang number mo

paano mo ma-undo ang pagsabi ng totoo mong pangalan

paano mo matanggal and 1s and 0s ng mga imahe mo sa kanyang camera

paano ka tumakas sa mga text at calls niya

hinarass ka niya, hindi mo naman inamin, akala niya magkaibigan pa rin kayo
magaling ka kasing magpanggap na brave ka, na all good ang mundo..

kailangan bang may screen name ka pag lumalabas (ngayon ko lang naisip na dalawa ang etymology ng screen name, screen na telon at screen na matino ka bang tao para ibigay ko sa 'yo ang totoo kong 'ngalan?)

para kay...

Kung in lab ka, lahat may meaning.. kung jaded ka na lahat wala.

bring me back my innocence and naivete. But am too old for it. Sige na lang, bring me back my magic. This post should be in the secret blog, don't u think?

***

I can't decide if i should rain on your parade or just let you be.. in lab.

BB means BoB*

Hmmmm haven't recovered yet. What was I thinking?

Don't worry, am ok. Kept safe by prayers.

Just feel stupid and unlucky.

But i am ok.

Anonymous BB

Saturday was a weird, weird day..

Whole day was really just about sleeping and bumming..
4 straight night outs.. Official event, groupie duties, BMP research and album launch of a friend.. Woke up late, really late.
Big problem, I haven't started any work and I have a lot of super backlogs. Oh well.
But I have to go to penguin (tempting.. work and pleasure... he he) Penguin won as an initial event of my day. This is a 1030 meeting, 1030 PM.
I went there and I realized that that infamous and always quoted Fete de la Musique (spell check.. what the hell, am not french.) was happening that day. That day!
Almost got lost because my usual route, the remedios circle was closed..
And so the adventure started,
got a text from Ren*** of A*** A***** about his new number, invited him to join our BMP gig and he said yes.. napaka BMP mode, first conversation, done deal. I was so sure i will wing this negotiation with Penguin.
Then the person who I was supposed to meet -- the manager, Butch was so busy, saw him easily, I said hello but didn’t want to impose..I said, I'll just hang around and talk to him later. I decided to stay a while and check out the festivities..

Saw a major poet and a prominent literary journalist just hanging around.. Hmmm, good company.
And and a minor poet flirting around malate (hmmm she's building quite a rep, just heard about her doing body shots in katips last week.)
Bought some beers..
Listened to the music, lahi (mental note, get in touch with them,) pinikpikan and next in line was the dawn..
I was near the toilet area, saw an acquaintance and "his new body"
he has totally transformed himself into a semi-hunk, bwe-he-he (mental note, ask his diet regimen.) Txted him, "saw u, u looked good either am wrong, u changed or there's a better version of u alive.." short but witty txt reparte (spell check.. darn french words) followed.
And then I saw jett pangan..
And I saw another guy who suddenly stopped and planned to smack him (Smack Jett Pangan?? What the.. ) There were tugs, pushings and stares, semi smacks maybe some F*^&*.. words. I got a bit of the action since I was directly at the back side of Jett..
A minute of ruckus..
And a rose vendor came.. I bought flowers.. For Jett Pangan.
"Peace Pare."
Pinikpikan. Air thins and I had to go out, also alcohol was a bit affecting me.
Jett was also out for air, or yosi, or..
Small talk with Jett, anonymous Nina talks to Jett.
Went back to Pinikpikan, my beer needs refill.
And then a "courteous" guy paved the way towards the bar for me.. One red horse..
One fish, two fish...
"you drink like a fish… you always drink red horse?"
"not really, I had 2 lights and this is just my second horse"
Small talk pala ha..
You have been watching too many sesame street..
A stranger is a friend you haven't met.. (Need to bonk head…)
A stranger maybe a predator waiting for a victim..

Early on it was cool, I needed some conversation while waiting for Butch, some conversation to settle my nervous thoughts about the almost rumble that happened. They were there also, they saw.. they called the anti-Jett as Peque Gallaga (but the real PG is sweet, he would never do that, especially to Jett Pangan) because the guy sported a beard salt and pepper hair..
I went to talk with guy 1, 2 3 and 4.. Same group.. What was I thinking??
Then Jett's band was on..
At first I was just in a corner, with 2 ang TV girls, dancing sans ledge.
After a song, guy number 4 went near me and said I danced wild
??
And he pulled me towards the stage..
Gago guy number 4 was teasing me to hold Jett's hand.. When I realized and got shy I pulled my hand away..
And in the middle of his song, jett pangan held my hand sang me his song!
Wooooaaahhh groupie to the highest level..

I just want to end my story at this point, timeline 1 am..

Please, Please.

Yun na lang para happy.

And hindi matatapos ang isang trip without

a BB disaster..

am used to winging it. Life and plans are just a throw of a dice. I am but a player, I just rely on prayers and grace to get by..

Unlucky and clumsy.. my usual combination .. he he

Day 2, i fell on a chair, with a girl on it.
Nakakahiya, suddenly my balance just went *poof*
this happens to me, sometimes i do not have muscle control, am holding something and then like a clamp unfastened gravity grabs what i usually own.. hmmm, and this is what's funny.. I fell 2 times as in Nina falls down, stands up says sorry to girl and falls down again.. Ha ha ha
Leon my colleague who tried to catch me on his third try grabbed me by the arm and asked.. Now, ARE YOU OK?

Yup, i actually was, but during those 5 seconds, i wasn't. I had to call a friend immediately that instant. Kinailangan kong ilabas ang kahihiyan ko in tagalog. Lampa't kalahati.

BTW, etong tinawagan ko imbis na makiramay ang hirit pa sa akin.. huu siguro guwapo yung guy.. he he.. babae nga e, buti na lang hindi ko nadaganan kung lalaki yun e di hindi na ako tumayo..

:P

Welcome to Taiwan!

First time akong bumiyahe ng naka costume, lagare kasi ng 2 pang event, isa sa manila, isa sa taipei. I usually go in and out of the country in jeans and shirt, typical na sa akin na ibinababa ng taxi sa domestic terminal at kinakailangan ko pang sabihing abante po manong, international po. (lagi kasi akong Philippine Airlines dahil.. Sayang ang miles.. He he) Paminsan naka sandals pa nga ako na binili ko sa boracay bago pa masunog ang dating talipapa sa halagang 100 php (na akala ng iba ay nike na dalawang libo! Ano ako hilo!) Kasi I travel in comfort, magbabalibag ka ba naman ng bag na kasya ang dalawang pamangkin mo mag papaka fashionista pa ba ako. Gusto ko mabilis, komportable at hindi ako didipende sa kagandahang loob ng iba para lang tulungan ako (but in fairness sa maraming cultura, ang lalaking pinoy nga ang pinaka chivalrous -- palagi na lang akong nakakasalubong ng babae sa elevator ng asus na may dalang CRT monitor at PC na hinahatak niya sa ilang palapag na walang tutulong man lang sa kanyang lalaki.. Maaring inculcated na sa kanila ang mga disciplinang at rules na gaya ng give way to elders or disabled passengers, pag pila ng maayos etc. etc. pero yung mga unwrittens, mas lamang na lamang naman ang pinoy.) Mabilis akong makakila ng luggage at ng designated sundo (surreal nung una akong pinapunta sa taiwan ng opisina noon.. Pag dating ko sa airport, nakita ko ang driver na susundo sa akin na may hawak na karatula with my name.. Feeling ko para akong diplomat o kung sinong big time executive ng isang multinational, o kaya Japanese papa ng isang yuki girl mail order bride "Nina - san! Mabuhay!".. Yun nga lang nakat-shirt at maong lang ako.. Pebrero noon, malamig, hindi talaga swak sa executive fantasies ko ang moment in time na yun.. Tumawag ako sa dad ko to tell them I've touched down.. Pero nginiiiig ako sa lamig.) gusto ko na lang makarating sa hotel, at dun na ako magtra-transform into Executive BB.
Sa Taiwan pa naman lahat nakaamerikana.. So costume kung costume! I've invested some sets of costumes already in all colors and sizes (ilang beses na rin naman akong pumayat - tumaba sa asus) sa pinas hindi ko nagagamit ang mga ito, pwera lang kung may official events and functions na kasama ko ang mga HQ guys, dressing the part kung baga.
So ayun, first time to really look like my demographics upward mobile global pinoy. He he kanina may isa pang nuance, hindi ko pala nakita ang karatula ko.. still in fairness, costumes give u access to an extra mile.. perception and appearance talaga.. while the tourist center paged my driver, another guy entertained me, and if you say u are from asus, they will think you are from the upper floor ngayon, dati sa factory ang picture sa head nila, sa basement (not that that is an insult -- am so proud of my fellow pinays in asus.) .. "u are from mr. Aguilar's place?" akala ko naman kung sinong aguilar.. Hinanting ba ako ni nene aguilar dahil di ako nakaboto? Matapos niya akong bigyan ng bday card every year walang humpay. this is where our taxes go. Ay ano ba layo na nilakbay ko. Aguilar pala as in Freddie, anak, this guy who talked to me is a Burmese based in Taiwan and he is so proud of my ka Freddie.. I now have major major respect to the Freddie Aguilar.

anyway, i don't know what's in store for me here in Taiwan. just a few days, i don't want to stay so long anymore, wish me luck and Welcome to Taiwan.

The art of saying NO

I finally said NO to something this season. Grabe, am looking at my PDA and surely a proof of my kaladkarin ways.

Today my colleague called me up asking for my slot in Boracay. I gladly gave up my slot. I DO NOT want to work in Boracay, if i'd go there, i want to relax.

and besides I have a Banned gig that weekend. I don't want to miss a banned gig 2 in a row.

so now, am off to Taiwan, but this trip is not as toxic as my usual trips, I can do shopping and minggling and tiangge shopping.. he he WTC (world trade, where computex is) is in the shopping district, my hotel Zi Mei is also in a shopping district.. spending problem, here I come.

He he, this is where the art of saying NO should be important.

Sick again

Walang paltos, everytime i have trips i get sick, either before, after or during a trip. Unang nakapansin nyan ay yung ad agency AE ko, binati niya ako one time kasi nga regular ang meetings namin and nagkakataon na may lagnat ako ako or not feeling well.

Ngayon, it is before. Days before. kaya heto while slaving in front of the PC I doze off in and out of consciousness kasi i am also taking cough medicine (ang bilis kong ma-high.) But for some people they can comfortably lambing to their mom to prepare them hot soups in bowls, supped in jammies in their bedrooms.. ako I just have to contend with the weird sick feeling (hot in the head and sore throat) with a wet towel on my head and a chowking halo-halo.

Ganun na rin yun. :P